Being Human

     This is a collection of poems created to showcase the progression through life and realising who you are. It begins with a poem about terminal illness and hopelessness and ends with a poem about spirit. It shows the lowest point in life, after that they all get slowly happier. From poems about boys to poems about girls. From poems about struggle and love to poems about social issues. A progression as a writer and a progression as a person. This collection of poems is cohesive in the sense that it doesn't have a central topic other than humanity. Struggles and success and sexual orientation and gender and acceptance. This collection showcases being human. Read poems on first page, click older posts, and repeat until you get to the end.

Thoughts Of The Terminally Ill

I'm crying and I'm dying

But you don't think I'm trying

You don't understand

As you're holding my hand

I'm slowly slipping away

Farther and farther each day

I know when I part

I'll have broken your heart

Leaving only mangled pieces

I'm so sorry to say

I just can't live this way

It's getting harder to breathe

Edging closer to my time to leave

I should never have let you love me

Stress

I'm bathing in the darkness

Of my pain and dysphoria

I feel like it's hopeless

I know I'm a goner

As I rip out my hair

Trying to find a way out

A way out of this

This hazy daze

That occupies my days

I feel weary and dreary

Even I've begun to fear me

I don't know what to do

When everything is due

And I haven't even started

I wish you hadn't departed

As the anxiety fills up

Overflowing the cup

Past its maximum capacity

How could I let this get past me

I should have just gone to sleep

Inside the darkness that creeps

Both disturbing and calming my mind

Superheroes

I am a superhero

With the power of love

The power to change

Hearts and minds

On the street where we stand

I can reach for her hand

Crash my lips against hers

Without a single word

And neither can breathe

As we're drowned in a sea

That's made up of applause

And thank god

That the power of love

Is held high above

Any other

Everyone is a superhero

You don't need strength or to fly

When in everyone's eyes

The power to love and be loved

Is one of a kind

I don't need to levitate

Or have super speed

But I have to appreciate

The power of loving freely

The ability to care

Running fingers through hair

Watching her sitting there

And I finally see

How lucky I must be

For her to give this superpower to me

Snow

She's like freshly laid snow

So pure and peaceful

A picture of pristine innocence

A pretty pearly white perfection

Part of me wants to corrupt her beauty

To play in the snow forever

Leaving footprints in her

As I have my fun

Another part of me wants to protect her

To shield her from the feet of children

To keep them from ruining her

And make sure I don't destroy her

She's so fragile and gorgeous

The sleet cutting through her

Like my words on a dark night

After too little sleep and too much to drink

But try as I may, others have found her

They haven't protected her from the rain

They played with her and changed her

Until my love has turned to slush

She finds it hard to be beautiful

When she's the remnants of what was

Once perfect crystalline skin

Is now melted in the park

She goes away awhile

And makes her return as rain

Giving life to new flowers

Now creating beauty

I love the gorgeous rain of spring

And the puddles she leaves behind

But kids keep turning her into mud

And splash her water wide

I'll keep her safe as long as I can

And protect her innocent beauty

Until people decide to play in her

But she's still beautiful to me

Trapped

Trapped in this house

A house that isn't home

Trapped by my family

And feeling alone

Trapped in this body

That doesn't feel like mine

I don't know how I've done it

After all this time

My skin is a prison

And I'm locked inside

Weighed down by dysphoria

That's haunting my mind

No longer pretty porcelain

Nor fragile ceramic doll

I've grown new and tougher skin

That won't shatter if I fall

So let me go into the world

As who I truly am

Maybe someday in the future

We'll be okay again

A Letter To The Boy I Fall For

His nails are like glass

Moving smoothly against skin

Cut me slowly before class

He says he loves me again

Please forgive me

He will caress my fragile bones

though my heart is made of stone

But I can't make it on my own

His arms are now my home

Please forgive me

His body is like a temple

and it shouldn't go to waste

It feels too much to handle

To see the look upon his face

"I'm gay"

Please forgive me

I feel I've done him wrong

It gets darkest before dawn

So I put my facade on

Pretend every girl is gone

Please forgive me

Because my hands are in her hair

And I can't look in your eyes

I only blush when she stares

I hate living these lies

Please forgive me

We're getting married now you see

Think how much happier I'd be

If you had just left me

To fall for the girl down the street

Please forgive me